Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Sunday, April 15, 2012

You'll be missed

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Its been a long time.

Today something that I've really care about left me forever. My beloved pet lovebird passed away on 15/4/2012 approx 3-7am. I'm emotionally affected, hitting rock bottom.

My lovebird has been through so many things with me. Exams, internship, enlistment, then it flew away for a week or so and returned to us miraculously, and now finally leaving us forever after being with us and enriching my life for a short 4 years time. It is one of the little things that I truly care for...

I'm finding it increasingly difficult to return to camp every week due to issues at heart. Dad work overseas, brother studying overseas, and I'm stuck in camp most of the time leaving mother alone. Army has taken so many things away from me, physically and psychologically. Tough times, tough times, I need the will to carry on.

I really wonder if I could have done more to save my pet, or am I just ignorant? How I wish I can mourn at home for a few days before returning to camp. I really do not know how to concentrate in camp for the week. Unstable, disturbed, irritated, fatigue, is what I feel everyday. It seems that my life has been hit by a vortex of shit and unfortunate events. When will all this end? I need a break...

bye blog

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Genuinity

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Spent the whole day out with my good friend on monday. When to beach road to buy army related stuff. I thought $20 was enough, ended up the uncle pushed us so much goods that I spent all my $50 on it lol.

We're suppose to meet up with more people for a "enlistment + birthday" dinner for my friend, but oh well, they have more important things to do. Ended up with a dinner for 2, agony. But we enjoyed the dinner, talked a lot. I was expecting us to run out of things to say and leave in an hour or so, but ended up to be a long dinner. I guess we're just spending as much time as possible before he enlist. My turn's coming soon! :(

On another topic.

I've been sleeping very late recently (its 5am right now). I've totally lost the drive to do anything meaningful. Stopped running, stopped exercising frequently, stopped helping out in certain matters, and stopping to do anything good for people. I'm tired of my efforts being throw and spitted down into the drain. I genuinely and sincerely try to do my best in organising things. I try hard to make things work but theres always a kink here or there. Sometimes, a part of me tells me that its a waste of time, but I try again and again. Now I'm just tired, gave up.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Back!

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Back from 3D2N of Genting. Awesome trip. Good climate, great fun, great company :). Anyway I'll blog about that in the next few post. Not really in the mood or have the time to do it.

Had a few intelligent conversations with a few friends over MSN just now, feels refreshed. Hardly have such conversation anymore.

Gradnight's tomorrow, not going. Feels weird. Dont know why.

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Tuesday, March 1, 2011

End of IAP

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Hurray for the end of IAP!

IAP was hell of a good experience for me. Working in a tech startup, all foreigners and IN NUS is totally awesome. Bet no one else had the same experiences as me (muwahaha).

The first few days in office was kind of a culture shock for me (considering I'm used to having singaporeans around me). I was not used to interacting with them (mandarin mostly), but I got used to it after a while. In the end, we begin learning more about each other's culture (or whats left of it, lol) and history.

I admit I was a little bit xenophobic at the start but hey, who isn't!? When I tell my friends that I worked in a company with me as the only citizen, their reaction was expectable haha. But really, its not as bad as it seems. In fact it was a very refreshing experience. Working in a startup, where theres not really a defined corporate structure. Carefree and relaxed because everyone is a friend!

And the more awesome part is, I work in NUS! Central hub of all the smarties in Singapore! Hope this won't be my last time visiting NUS... Hais (uni-application...) Haha. And yes, this is my first official job. I've clocked zero seconds in any jobs, nuttah. Had a farewell pizza dinner during my last day and I gave out chocolates to everybody :D!

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Tuesday, February 15, 2011

D minus 8

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D minus 8. G minus 16.

Nothing much to do now during work. Testings are done, saikangs are done... New interns are here. Another language barrier. Not because of mandarin this time, but english. They do not speak mandarin because they're not Chinese :/. I'm not really good at listening, and not used to explaining things in english now... cos I was explaining and talking to people in mandarin for the past few months. Hope they understand what to do before I leave.

Oh and CNY came and go. 2 Days of CNY is more than enough for a family this small. Haha.

Applying for NUS and NTU. Computer Engineering as my first choice, best of luck. Prefer NUS really, but I'm desperate for any university though. Now starts the agonising wait...

Taking it easy everyday, trying not to think too much about things. Like a robot or something :/. Living by my principles daily as a "working" class is easy man. Just mind my own business and walk.

Anyway, 10 more days till the end of internship. 16 more days till Genting trip with my good friends :).

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Monday, December 6, 2010

emoboy91@yahoo.com.sg

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First day of attachment was nothing good. Although I only spent my time there from 9.30am to 12.30pm, I'm already demoralised. Like a little sheep, disorientation and lost in the sea of translation. I can't understand most of what they say.

Yes, they all speak Mandarin (I speak Manglish: Mandarin+English). Sat in a meeting and I couldn't catch anything. Computer language + Mandarin = A very Confused Wei Kang. Nonetheless, I hope I can cope with all this xenophobia going on inside me. I worry about if I can reply to what they say properly. I tend to say stupid things sometimes when I'm not familiar with the person.

I don't think I can communicate well with them... Don't know whats gonna happen tomorrow during lunchtime :/.

Anyway, the highlight for today was not work but my CMPB checkup with my FRIENDS. DUDE IT WAS SUCH A RELIEF TO SEE MY FRIENDS. Finally the sheep was back with the herd. So elated to see them, really. Wow, I can't believe I miss my friends so quickly... :(. Working sucks.

Ok anyway, back to CMPB. Tests went well, PES A I hope. Very surprised at the Blood testing phase. The medic was talking to me a lot, joked (but not easy jokes, quite scary).

Medic - "Hey you know i dont like meridian JC people"
Me - "Okay..."
Medic - "Where you from? Meridian JC?" (holding up needle)
Me - "Nooo... thats not a very good question"
Medic - "Ya good, MJ people are ******"
Me - "Okay, thats not very encouraging... I'm from NYP."

LOL. Then I was staring at the needle while it went into my skin. It was quite a sharp pain, but painful enough to make me jump. But I flinched because it was quite disgusting, so very weird. I was making an "Ughhhh" sound when the blood came out. Medic asked "Got so pain meh", and I replied "No la, damn weird sia... like weird...".

Then JAP BUFFET @ 313. Omg the Shabu Shabu was GREAT. Dude. Great good, great place, great FRIENDS = AWESOME! We feasted, joked, laughed a hell lot. Friends are really important man...

3 Hours of work made me miss my friends so much. So much. I miss everyone now. Guess I shall stop here, if not I'll start to sound like a little girl.

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Friday, December 3, 2010

Yesterdays

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This is probably the last time we would converge in school.

These two and a half years had been a blast for me. Its filled with hits and misses.

Some small & short parts were the highlights of my life in school.
Great times, happenings and friends. As I go through all these wonderful memories in my mind, I can't stop but think about how I met all these wonderful people. Surprising gems, I must say...

However, some memories were filled with regrets and agony. Regrets of not going out and talking to people, making more friends (after much thought, i think i'm better off this way haha). Agony, rather not talk about it.

I'll miss so much about the time I've spent (with my friends) in NYP. I leave with precious memories :). So here I conclude the chapters of my life in NYP. Off to internship and early adulthood. Time will not wait for anybody. Wish me luck on Monday.

bye blog

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Death by Decimation

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Zero point freaking four.

A pretty shocking revelation (
Zero point freaking four) was revealed to me a few days ago. I roughly know why I'm not in "it" anymore. Zero point freaking four. Although I thought (and still think) that (Zero point freaking four) its totally B.S, I've got to accept my fate, Zero point freaking four. (Okay, let the man grief for a while)

I built a
sandcastle on a hypothetical plot of a beach. Just as I'm about to complete my super awesome sandcastle, a big wind come blowing by which in turn brought massive waves to the shores. Destroying my (super awesome and potentially destiny-changing) sandcastle in the process. I don't know where that bigass wind comes from, but it sure did bring waves which destroyed my (potentially destiny-changing) sandcastle.

So what do you do if your (destiny-changing) sandcastles are destroyed? You build them again... (which is not fun at all)

I know I'm not (appearing to) making sense here. Maybe I'm not using good metaphors (sandcastles), but people who knows what I'm feeling and what I've been through will know what I'm trying to relate to (really?).

But still, I think that bigass wind is total B.S. Just like the results.
Zero point freaking four.

Screw it, stop grieving dude....... no.

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Friday, October 22, 2010

FO: NV

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Still adjusting to FYP life, but its so much easier with good friends around :).

Dammit, can't get enough of Fallout: New Vegas! Gotta sleep early due to FYP timings... ugghhhz. Need more time!

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Monday, October 18, 2010

denied

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Received a call from my teacher while on the bus to school this morning. Bad news, didn't get into the finals. Disappointed. Instant decimation of my high spirits.

L- "Disappointed ma? Hai ok ba?"
WK- "Hah. Dang ran you yi dian disappointed la... wo hai hao.." "Ok, I'll tell them about it..."

Instantly, I became the herald of good&bad news to certain people. Some concerned individuals started to sms me about my & their results. Said what I needed to say to some, explained what I had to explain.

Honestly, I'm pretty shocked at the outcome. I spent a good amount of time recalling about what I've done... I don't know where did I went wrong! I hope I'll get an explanation even though the outcome will not change (at least it will give me a peace of mind).

On the bright side, I'm relinquished of all wss trainings and back to "normal" life. At first I thought: "hey, more free time, song boh." But my dreams of having more free time were smashed when I realised that FYP was coming my way -_-". Tasked to do something that I've no idea what its about, guess its FYP afterall.

I'm still pretty lost right now (partly due to the fact that I've been laid off, Lulz). I need a plan.

OH FALLOUT NEW VEGAS WILL BE OUT TOMORROW. YEAH SOMETHING TO LOOK FOR TO DROWN MYSELF IN :D.

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Tuesday, October 5, 2010

15Oct

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I'm back to school, just like a FYP student. However, I'm training for my finals even though I don't even know if I'll be in the finals or not. My lecturers say that the Finals will be totally different from what we did last time. More cables, more items, more equipments, more stress!

Results will be out on 15 Oct. I'm confident, but not fully haha.

Rant:

The rich say that money is not important.
The bright say that grades are not important.

The poor may not say that money is important, but they need it.
The not-so-bright may not say that grades are important, but they want it.

Natural?

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Friday, September 10, 2010

Drums?

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Summary of my life till date: Finished my exams. Training for WSS started. No life.

Bro wanted to buy an electronic drumset, so I looked up the forums for a deal.
Almost bought an electronic drumset a few days back, but didnt because of some hesitation. Aww. That got me into wanting to get a drumset too... It'll be fun to have a guitar and a drumset at home!

Ok. so now I want a bass guitar & a drumset. I think I should open a HDB studio...

yay i'm faster on the electric now weee~

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Monday, July 19, 2010

World Cup Fever?

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World Cup ended with Spain as the champions. Ugh.

WC wrecked my health with a slight flu first, then a recurring fever and then now with a very bad cough. *Weees* Managed to finish my CS presentation last Friday.

Not going for PE again. Injured knee's still injured. Sick me's still sick. I need a 仙丹。 Damn

Cough myself to sleep.

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Monday, June 21, 2010

Sian Cup 2010

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Had a sleepover at my friend's hse on Saturday night. Watched the world cup with a whole bunch of us. Netherlands VS Japan, and 2 more matches which I can't remember. I'm sure I was half-asleep most of the time. This is one of the most boring world cup -_-.

What I hate the most about this year's WC is those damn horns. Vuvezula or whatever they call it. Piece of plastic crap which they call a musical instrument. Everyone was blowing that damn piece of shit all the time making the stadium sound like a hornet nest. That constant humming is really... depressing.

Played iSketch with everyone till 3am. Blacked out on the floor until 5am. Oily fried noodles for breakfast and then bus home.

I'm still freaking tired -_-. bai.

Oooooh yes, and my bro just bought a dslr. Expect pictures of my parrot :D.

bye blog

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Going for gold

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I went for a run today. Sadly, I didn't bring along a watch to record my time but I feel I'm "fast" enough.

It takes discipline to train for stamina, in this case, 2.4Km. You got to consider the time of lunch, the amount of food & water you take before the run. You still have to dispel the self-discouragement (lazyness) while planning to run!

I don't get why most people say pull-ups' the most difficult to train for. All you got to do is keep "trying"! *WOH, Neighbour's knocking again... chua sai*. Anyway, its either you are too heavy (fat) or you are too weak. I was bad at pull-ups (ZERO... 0!) before I enter poly. Took some initiative, exercise, toughen up and ta-da manage to "pass" after just 5 months. Now, I can reach 10 or more.

Bronze-d for NAPFA. Could have gotten a Silver if I ran a little faster. Could have gotten a Gold if I ran faster & jumped further. So close but yet so far. Gonna make sure I get at least a Silver or a Gold on the next test :D.

Not physically blessed, thats why I'm working hard to achieve my target (and for the bragging rights :P).

ps (self-motivation): I can sense that they did not expect me to be able to do a single pull. But I did 10. EAT THAT!

Time to sleep, Wss tomorrow.

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Monday, June 14, 2010

Cry "Havoc!"

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Most prob the last holiday that I'll have in my Poly time. Gonna return to school (1, 3, 5) for wss training this coming week. Hais there goes 1 precious week.

Very pleased with my current CS results. Hope I can maintain it. Another presentation after school reopens, ugh!

Holiday Checklist:

1. Complete CS slides
2. Complete NE
3. Bunch of BAWAN Equiz
4. Napoleon: Total War before school reopens
5. Finish "Hannibal" film series
6. Get semi-acoustic guitar
7. Watch more classic films
8. Be a better pet-owner :D.

Watching A-Team tomorrow after WSS training! Song boh?!

Its been a long time since I hang out with my friends...

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Sunday, May 23, 2010

We're professionals!

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Happy birthday to Desmond, updated late heh. Great dinner at an Indian restaurant on friday. Such a good experience.

Anyway, just finished watching Reservoir Dogs by Quentin Tarantino. I liked it. A very different film style as compared to films nowadays. Eh, you gotta watch & you'll understand heh. 4am now, fudging sleepy liao.

Gonna watch a few more films by Quentin Tarantino... you know, the guy that made "Inglorious Basterds". Yeah him. Went to HMV on friday to scout for for classic films to watch :D.

Gonna be a Hannibal Lecter Film week >: ). "Silence of the Lambs" tomorrow. Ohhh the excitement.

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Sunday, May 2, 2010

Saturday & Sunday Night Fever!

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Self Diagnosis:

Hot forehead with red eyes, feeling warm, feeling cold -_-. Deterioration of motor skills. Fatigue. Coughing. Nose block.

Verdict:
Fever.

Prescription:
Water, and Sleep.

Fucking ruined my weekends. :(.

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Friday, March 26, 2010

巧!

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Okay firstly, I fail on doing the things I said I'll do yesterday. Fail on the guitar part totally.

Bumped into Bryan at Compass today. Almost didn't recognise him (again). Changed from that thick, long, and wild hair into more "straight" hair. Caught up a little just by standing around and chatting. Seems like FYP in SP sucks. Hope to meet up soon for some crazy shit.

Bumped into a Poly classmate while taking the escalator. Win. 1 trip hit 2 friends.

Had PizzaHut, talked cock and went home.

Its gonna be a late night for me, MOVIE NAI!

Oh yes, watched a few of clips on Climate Change debates. Post my views soon. :)

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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

on loan

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Dad's back. Yay!

Anyway, Hz visited me today. Left his acoustic guitar at my place, said that he will come back to collect it after some time. Shiok lah, now I've another guitar to accompany me through my lonely nights.

Having late nights. Sleeping at 3am or 4am almost everyday since the past week. Most of the time doing nothing on the internet, just staring at the screen (well... actually playing guitar :P). Guess I'll have to reset my body clock again.

So, I'll put this time with Hz's acoustic guitar into good use before it gets taken back to its rightful owner! :(. Think I should sleep soon... WSS training tomorrow. Fudge.

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