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Its been a long time.
Today something that I've really care about left me forever. My beloved pet lovebird passed away on 15/4/2012 approx 3-7am. I'm emotionally affected, hitting rock bottom.
My lovebird has been through so many things with me. Exams, internship, enlistment, then it flew away for a week or so and returned to us miraculously, and now finally leaving us forever after being with us and enriching my life for a short 4 years time. It is one of the little things that I truly care for...
I'm finding it increasingly difficult to return to camp every week due to issues at heart. Dad work overseas, brother studying overseas, and I'm stuck in camp most of the time leaving mother alone. Army has taken so many things away from me, physically and psychologically. Tough times, tough times, I need the will to carry on.
I really wonder if I could have done more to save my pet, or am I just ignorant? How I wish I can mourn at home for a few days before returning to camp. I really do not know how to concentrate in camp for the week. Unstable, disturbed, irritated, fatigue, is what I feel everyday. It seems that my life has been hit by a vortex of shit and unfortunate events. When will all this end? I need a break...
bye blog
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Revelation of you
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I'm starting to let cynical logic take over me. I perceive people and their words differently, not the same as before.
This is bad. Its turning me into a cold and calculative being.
This is good though. I see right through now... right through.
bye blog
I'm starting to let cynical logic take over me. I perceive people and their words differently, not the same as before.
This is bad. Its turning me into a cold and calculative being.
This is good though. I see right through now... right through.
bye blog
Genuinity
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Spent the whole day out with my good friend on monday. When to beach road to buy army related stuff. I thought $20 was enough, ended up the uncle pushed us so much goods that I spent all my $50 on it lol.
We're suppose to meet up with more people for a "enlistment + birthday" dinner for my friend, but oh well, they have more important things to do. Ended up with a dinner for 2, agony. But we enjoyed the dinner, talked a lot. I was expecting us to run out of things to say and leave in an hour or so, but ended up to be a long dinner. I guess we're just spending as much time as possible before he enlist. My turn's coming soon! :(
On another topic.
I've been sleeping very late recently (its 5am right now). I've totally lost the drive to do anything meaningful. Stopped running, stopped exercising frequently, stopped helping out in certain matters, and stopping to do anything good for people. I'm tired of my efforts being throw and spitted down into the drain. I genuinely and sincerely try to do my best in organising things. I try hard to make things work but theres always a kink here or there. Sometimes, a part of me tells me that its a waste of time, but I try again and again. Now I'm just tired, gave up.
Spent the whole day out with my good friend on monday. When to beach road to buy army related stuff. I thought $20 was enough, ended up the uncle pushed us so much goods that I spent all my $50 on it lol.
We're suppose to meet up with more people for a "enlistment + birthday" dinner for my friend, but oh well, they have more important things to do. Ended up with a dinner for 2, agony. But we enjoyed the dinner, talked a lot. I was expecting us to run out of things to say and leave in an hour or so, but ended up to be a long dinner. I guess we're just spending as much time as possible before he enlist. My turn's coming soon! :(
On another topic.
I've been sleeping very late recently (its 5am right now). I've totally lost the drive to do anything meaningful. Stopped running, stopped exercising frequently, stopped helping out in certain matters, and stopping to do anything good for people. I'm tired of my efforts being throw and spitted down into the drain. I genuinely and sincerely try to do my best in organising things. I try hard to make things work but theres always a kink here or there. Sometimes, a part of me tells me that its a waste of time, but I try again and again. Now I'm just tired, gave up.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Screw it
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Yea yea yea, I know. I've been lost for a while.
Anyway, screw it I can't pass my 2.4km. I'm going to PTP.
"Can't pass NAPFA test
Two more weeks till PTPUpdate next time, if I don't lose myself again...
bye blog
Yea yea yea, I know. I've been lost for a while.
Anyway, screw it I can't pass my 2.4km. I'm going to PTP.
"Can't pass NAPFA test
Two more weeks till PTPUpdate next time, if I don't lose myself again...
bye blog
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Be still
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Most of my friends enlisted last week. Even more reasons to train harder and pass Napfa. Procrastination is a bitch -_-.
Its surprising how someone you know changes their view/opinion/behaviors so quickly. It is as if you've not known that person before. Hmm, are they the ones changing? Or am I the one not changing?
bye blog
Most of my friends enlisted last week. Even more reasons to train harder and pass Napfa. Procrastination is a bitch -_-.
Its surprising how someone you know changes their view/opinion/behaviors so quickly. It is as if you've not known that person before. Hmm, are they the ones changing? Or am I the one not changing?
bye blog
Monday, June 6, 2011
Avast!
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Yo ho-ho!
Pirates of the Carribean Trilogy on blu-ray? Awesome shit.
Me eyes are mighty tired right now, shiver me timbers.
Gonna catch some sleep. Blog another time.
bye blog
Yo ho-ho!
Pirates of the Carribean Trilogy on blu-ray? Awesome shit.
Me eyes are mighty tired right now, shiver me timbers.
Gonna catch some sleep. Blog another time.
bye blog
Friday, June 3, 2011
Cynicism
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I am jobless thus I have a lot of free time.
I read on things during my free time.
I read about things that enlighten me once in a while.
Yes. As the title suggests, I've read up a little on cynicism. Gonna live the life with less desires and expectations. Don't expect people to like you or do anything for you. No one cares about you. If everyone in the world were to hold hands, they would form a gigantic asshole that would drag your soul into it.
Be a cynic today. Live a happy life with no disappointments. The world doesn't revolves around you or anyone. Lets put our egos aside and chill out like a bro.
bye blog
I am jobless thus I have a lot of free time.
I read on things during my free time.
I read about things that enlighten me once in a while.
Yes. As the title suggests, I've read up a little on cynicism. Gonna live the life with less desires and expectations. Don't expect people to like you or do anything for you. No one cares about you. If everyone in the world were to hold hands, they would form a gigantic asshole that would drag your soul into it.
Be a cynic today. Live a happy life with no disappointments. The world doesn't revolves around you or anyone. Lets put our egos aside and chill out like a bro.
bye blog
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